For a long time now, I have been walking my own path, occaisionally wandering back to ask for a favor from God. You know when I have a problem, face a mountain in my life. But never really coming back to Him to seek His face or His will in my life. Part of that reason is because of pride. And the other big part is because of guilt. Forgiving yourself is the hardest thing someone can ever encounter. But shouldn’t it be easy? I mean, God has forgiven me of everything. Why can’t I do the same. It’s funny where life takes you when you think your in control of it. This whole year I have felt God tugging on my heart, telling me I need to come back into his arms. And I have maybe half indulged this, seeking for a home church, not finding one as an excuse on why I can’t come back. But the truth is that I felt guilty. I once considered myself a servant of God, faithful, steeped in His love and His Word. And I had fallen so far, how could I ever come back and be as loved as I once felt. Well seek and you shall find. I came across a verse in Philipians that I have never really seen before. Philipians 3:13 reads ” No, dear brother and sisters, I am still not all I should be, but I am focusing all my energies on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead..”. And this is THE PAUL, the great evangelist of the New Testament. This spoke so heavily to me that I can’t ignore it. We are all unfinished works of art, being chiseled by God’s love and his grace. I know that I have some tough road ahead of me, but I don’t have to let the sins of my past keep me from seeking God’s face and His will in my life.
Resonant Love 